Can There......

Can there be a time when you’re so lost that your presence can’t be found……

I mean ya… not the case of Lost in thought… those we’ve all had and have been castigated by our teachers at least once during our lifetimes…. Even the geeks have been lost in some thought even if it was yet another numerical they were solving in their head during English class and had to be hauled back to life/senses… back to the lit. class. Point being, all of us have been lost like that and I definitely didn’t mean this lost…..

And yes I don’t mean the lost like the “The Lost” sit com where you’re lost in some geographical unit of the world like an island waiting to be found or the Tundra and Alaska where there’s a saying that once you’re lost.. You might never be found…..

I mean, can there actually be a time in life where your own presence can’t be found… even by you… where you feel completely lost to things around you and there seems no way that can turn around things… there seems no way that can lead to an opening…a ray of light.. A solution….. Where the only solution that could and is available to you in fact might get you in a deeper black hole…..

Can you ever be so detached and clueless where you seek for the company of people…. Where your privacy and you solitariness threatens you and you go looking for the comforting company of your most trusted and loved ones and in fact that turns out to unnerve you further…. Where someone is so close to you… is your hope and an expression to your emotion but still is so far away… so distant…so not there sitting 2 inches away from you…. You’re left completely baffled at now what….

Can you be so falsified and dissimulated by your own self where you lose track of your own senses….

I mean like you lose track of your own hunger…. Where you feel hungry, then in matter of few minutes you don’t …. And in case you do end up eating you’re so distorted that nothing seems compatible or palatable to your taste buds… nothing no pizza… no pasta… no butter chicken… you just end up eating little coz you know its imperative….

Where any/ all music on your drives and disks somehow stops making sense and sounds cacophonous and the peace and quite also irritates you…

Can you ever be so Unacquainted with your own self…..

I thought not…. But I guess Yes…….

How lost is lost

How lost is found…..

How what was found was lost….

An emotion

A soul

A heart

A break

A person who’s fake

A journey we didn’t take

A life we could not make

Things that matter

Emotions/moments to gather

The Power in a Relationship Lies with the One Who Cares Less......

I read this status update on facebook.... it was my best friends.... and it got me thinking....

Do people actually realise the power they have over others.... Do they realise they have the power to change a persons life...to maneuver a persons life in any direction....

Do they realise all this and purposely be insensitive to hurt the other.... to weaken the other.... what kind of egoistic satisfaction can a person extort out f hurting a person who blindly cares for them..... what is this power game..... I mean are they blind to see that they only get this power because someone genuinely loves them..... if this someone was to stop caring where would they get this power from.... and if this someone cares so much for them is it fair to act this callous way.... and hurt them

Does it actually make sense to Care less for a person to be the significant powerful one when someone unconditionally loves you and trusts you...

Diwali

Uday- The Rise

This is something I had written 7 yrs ago when my nephew was born... i had uploaded it on a portal for poetry, they needed that if you published a poem in Hindi it had to be supplemented with a translation in English. Well the translation also turned to be nice so adding both

Uday andhkar ko tyagti subah ka hai
Uday ek akanksha ek umeed ka hai
Uday ek khushi ek nae ullas ka hai
Uday do logon ke milan ka hai
Uday kisi ki aati jaati saason or nae jeevan ka hai
Uday ek nai peedi ka hai
Uday ek nai kilkaari nae phul ka hai
Uday kisi ki kalpana ke saakshat roop ka hai
Uday uska hai jisko uski chahat hai
Uday mera hai humara hai
Aakhir Uday Omkaar hai.


It's the rise - where darkness is left by the night and morning follows
It's the rise- of new dreams and new hopes
Its the rise of a new happiness and new jubilation
It's the rise of someone's love
It's the rise when two people will unite
It's the rise of the coming and going of someone's life and someone's new life
It's the rise of a new generation
It's the rise of a new cry and a new flower(baby)
It's the rise where someone's dream have taken the form of reality
It's the rise of all those who've yearned for it
The rise is mine, The rise is Ours
After all The Rise is God

Vande Mataram

On this day & always, I shall honour and love my Motherland.....Vande Maataram...

This is the feeling that the day of August 15th started. I got on Facebook and updated my status, it was echoed by many others. Surge of patriotism had rushed through many others like me.... I even gifted the beloved Flag to lots of people through Facebook......We went out for lunch and all through the drive to the restaurant we listened to nice nice patriotic songs.....Its not that we saw the freedom struggle or anything.... It's this pride in being an Indian... It's this pride in belonging to India....

Well there were many who acted cynic and said what is this Independence day.... whats there to be happy about????? have you seen what the country has become and where it's going.. there is so much corruption..... there is so much of this.... there is so much of that.... and the cynicism went on and on.....Well I ignored it and was like whatever....

Fast Forward to October.... Newspapers started flooding with articles on Do's and Don'ts in respect of the Common Wealth Games 2010.... These Do's and Don'ts are to be followed for a year till 2010 games....There will be new road regulations... New fines....The people will be taught how to be courteous and polite.... It was one week before Diwali and the government asked people not to move out of homes till absolutely necessary because a dry run/drill was being done for the Games....It was quite irritating....

So in the evening that day I sat with a couple of my "cynic" friends and started speaking about how stupid the whole affair of dry runs is... "what stupidity is this one week before diwali and they expect us to sit at home, how is one to get their work done??? what is this need to be courteous or to be taught to be courteous, what crap is all this???" Funny as it may seem, but the same friends who were ranting about the stupidity of Independence Day started screaming at me, telling me how idiotic I am to be thinking like this. " Nami its the commonwealth games, don't you realize how prestigious it is..... You are going to be a Host to so many nations....The country has to be at it's best...You, I all of us will be acting like ambassdors of the country, when we do something out of the line people will scorn us for being bad Hosts.... Have you forgotten what our culture teaches us Atithi devo Bhavah- guests are to be treated like God" ..... I couldn't help but laugh at the Irony of the situation.... These people who couldn't take pride in being an Indian few months back suddenly were acting all nationalistic and patriotic.... It was funny..But then I thought....Hey even if its the Commonwealth Games which is getting this feeling in people.... Feeling of Pride for one's Nation... It's working....the work is getting done

In the end Whatever works... and gets the work done....And gets people to echo this feeling below

Bhagwa Safed Hara… Jeevan Chakra Mera…..Karm Satya Dharti Maa Inhi Mein Main Pala… Bhartiya Main Jana Bhartiya hi jala… Bhartiy Main Jeeyu Sada Bharitya Rahun… Bhagwa Safed Hara… Jeevan Chakra Mera

Cough Cough... Puff Puff

I had , had enough
I want to mention
Life - A tension
Asphyxiated and Stiffled
I looked for my options
Options .... Very Scarce
I chose
Smoking
A Puff
First Few Puffs
Anxieties Relieved
Difference in
Good and Bad
I knew
Future uncertain... unknown
Further... more.. pressure
Few More Puffs
Health Deteriorated
Lungs Gone
Speech Unclear
One more Puff
Breathing Struggling
Few More
Tensions Released
I think not
Still lots of battles to be fought
Enough
Just few more puffs
Life had.... had enough
Decisions were tough
But I was Stupid
For I chose the Puff....

Life

Ode to my love for books...

Life is a weird story
Few chapters already told
Few yet to become and hence untold
Each different chapter comprising of
Each different Genre...

Chapter 1 is the Children's Genre
Full of innocence, dreams
Fantasy Lands and Magic Worlds
Like those of Alice and Harry Potter
Trying to discover yourself
And having nothing to bother....

Chapter 2 is a jumbled one...
Variety enters Life
and it's fun....
It's a Romantic Genre
Where love is the religion
It's the quest to be united with your lover
A story of Oliver and Jenny
Where Love is not having to say sorry

Its the War Fiction
With you being Gabriel Allon
Whose waging War against terrorists and the kind
Only in your life there is a twist
Here Children are waging
A constant War against their parents
Arguments and Accusations
Fly around like Misile plains
It's always a draw
and no one Gains

It's the Detective fiction and a Spy Thriller
Where you are the evil, the criminal
And ironically you're also the Detective or Bond 007
Trying to cleans the Evil and the Bad within you
Hence becoming your own Savior, Your Hero.

It's the Science Fiction
Yet to be Written
On the inventions and innovations
In life yet to be done.

So
Life is a story of a
Confused Genre
And still
Your own
Unique Best Seller
Millions of copies are sold
To your Family, Friends, Relations
and so many others in the world
You get a Different Review
From each person you meet
The story of Life reaches its last chapter
Only when your life gets complete.

Kheech ke Humko laya Kahan yeh Rakeeb re

My life - Commerce with Math in School, Bachelors in English Lit, Masters in Fashion Management, Summer School program in Writing and now pursuing a correspondence course in Financial Studies ..... Where is my life leading me???? Somewhere I hope.....

Mr. A an excellent dancer had a penchant for Performing Arts, wanted to pursue the same line for his profession, parents dissuaded, on being advised studied finance, dropped out and did an MBA and now is looking for a Job. Funny as it may seem today he is sometimes told "You were always interested in the performing arts, why didn't you pursue it as a career option , you might have tested your metal". The poor guy doesn't know where to look....

Mr. B a very happy go lucky boy was living a very comfortable and satisfied life...Finished with graduation now was helping in the family business. Would work hard and then come back and relax and chill with friends...He was content, work was good... social life was even better....all in all Good.... On 15th, he was flying kite, after dark he was coming down the stairs of his newly constructed home and he missed his stepping, fell 3 1/2 flights, He's no more.....

Ms. C was about to turn 16, was a very responsible student and hence wanted to get back home after the fun filled weekend at the farm so that she doesn't miss school unnecessarily the next day.... on the way back she had a car accident and she passed away....

I have fallen in love with this song " Khudaya Ve" from the movie "Luck", well I was listening to it the other day and I don't know where my mind was but there are these lines that kind of stayed with me...."kheech ke humko laya kahan pe rakeeb re" .... Literally meaning... Where has our Destiny got us??? and it got me thinking....a lot

We plan our lives... I want to do this.... I want to be a CA, Doctor, Actor etc.... But what does our Destiny have in store for us??? What plans does it have....What course has It carved???? Yes Destiny/ Luck... it plays a very important role in where we reach what we do what we achieve what we lose.... I know a lot of people will argue this, because they believe, that only hard work will pay... and to some extent I also concur that you certainly cannot achieve without the hard work.... But Destiny/Luck it plays a very big role.

Lakhs of students study for various competitive exams and they do work hard for them but only a minor percentage get through.... Its because in those 2 hrs during the exam Luck did not favor the majority or maybe their Destiny has a better/other plan. A student two years back had cleared the CAT exam and got a call for interview from all the 6 IIM's. Few days before his interview at the IIM, Bangalore, he had a minor accident and he fractured his foot. He went for the interview and he was rejected because he had, had an accident. Yes that was the basis on which they rejected him, said " A person who is not sure of his footing, how will he be sure of making decisions in life"... Well all people could tell him was "destiny has something else in store for you" ... he converted his IIM Kolkatta call and now is going for his job to the USA....

Many people venture into businesses and become entrepreneurs..... fractional percentage grow in geometric progression....The case is not that the others don't have the aptitude or haven't taken risks of great magnitude... It's just Luck favoured the fractional few whereas it ruined few too on taking the same risks....The successful few did the right thing at the Right Time....

That's life... That's Destiny.... All you can do is work hard, put in the effort.... Rest whatever Destiny has in store for you, You will surely get it...nothing more nothing less.... You can't bet upon life, make concrete plans and bet upon them to complete.... The moment you start betting upon things Destiny throws in a new course a new plan for you and you are left wondering..... There are these lines in our Bhagwat Gita " Karmanya vadikarsya Maphaleshu kadachana ma karmaphal hetur bhoo ma sangostu akramani" meaning Thou hast power only to act not over the result thereof. Act thou therefore without prospect of the result and without succumbing to inaction .....

Work Work Work... and Leave it to your Destiny.... If you Succeed well You got luck on your side... if you don't wait have patience your destiny has something in store for you.... Just what that is... You will figure out in due course of time.....Just wait for Destiny... for your time

I had written this long ago....

Try as hard as you can
But trust me
It really won't matter
Coz everything that happens
Is because of me
After all I'm your destiny
You see!!!!!!!

I chose the place of your birth
I chose the day of your first step
I chose the day you spoke your first word
You spoke very untimely ... coz
I had gotten irritated seeing you sit quietly

I chose the course of your life
Every step that you took
Your success and failures are how I planned...
Your future I can foresee
After all it's all up to me

You may have a few aspirations
And few dreams too
Try... Maybe I'll get pleased
And make it happen too
But remember I'm here to tell you

Try but don't bet upon life
For you will never know what course
It might take
Every time you think you have it in control
I'll give you a blow...
I'm Egoistic...
I'm Sadistic...
I won't let Your life
Remain in Even flow....

I like to play my own games
Sometimes mean sometimes sweet
So chill n don't get depressed at your failures
Coz there's nothing you can do
Just try and wait for your results
And remember I have good things and Bad
All in store for you
Coz I'm your destiny
Your maker... Your Destroyer
I'm your Eternity

Few Lines....

These are few lines that I wrote here and there.... They don't have much essence and I need to complete them, but still putting them on to share... I shall complete them in due course of time....

Dreamy Eyes...
Lost Look
Searching Gaze
Into Nothingness......

The day life got tainted
World got painted Grey
Shades of confusion
Everything's a Disillusion....

Aaj Kuch na tha....
Wahi Shaam...
Wahi Mukaam tha
Tum aye tees uthi
Laga shayad kuch baki hai,
Kuch Lamhe...
Kuch baatein...
Kuch dard bhari Muskarahatein...
Tum aye pata chala
Ek Khwab tha
Khuli Aankhon ke liye
Or Baaki Kuch Na tha....

Confidence

I love dance and few years back I had gone for a show performed by the SDIPA called "Yes - The Power of Triumph". It was a beautiful show Glitz, Glamor, Superb Choreography by Shiamak and then Shiamak who himself danced and sang along with his troop. What more could someone like me ask for.....

What was brilliant was the narration and the concept behind the show. All you got to do is say YES. Yes the concept was that simple. YES - the key to achieving anything. When you say NO, You close all your doors in that direction but when you say YES, you open Opportunities, you open doors and options, you embark on a journey. Yes I can, Yes I Will and with that you Try and Make things Possible........

And that's what Confidence is all about... Just being able to say Yes. Yes when you feel confused. Yes when you feel troubled. Yes when you feel aprehensive. Just a simple YES. Confidence makes you say Yes and Stand up to situations, Face them and Fight them.

Someone very Wise once told me. "When you want something to happen, Say it with Conviction and then only will you be able to make it happen". Even a little Doubt and it reduces your Efficiency and you Effort in achieving it.

Confidence is......
To confide within all your fears....
To smile and hide away your tears....
To be bold instead of meek
To stand up for yourself and not be weak
To enter a crowd n let know your presence
To make laughter your life's essence
To believe in things that others can't
To make an Incline to look straight instead of a Slant
To agreeably, work toil and sweat
To be level headed when things become a threat
That's what's the value of Confidence
Making Life full of Excellence and Brilliance

Love - once twice or thrice

This one is for everyone of us whose fallen in love... It's everybody's story... Actually of Majority coz I know of A Lucky Minority Few who struck gold in the first go. Rest of us have a different story.....We found sort of Love more than one time and then got settled with Our Love or are still looking for that perfect Love.... Some of our stories were of unrequited love...

Zindagi yuhin guzar jayegi yun socha na tha
kisi humsafar ke intezar mein samay roka na tha
aisa nahi ki pyaar kiya nahi maine
bus usse lautaya nahi us kisi ne
sapno kemuqadarmein pura hone ki khushaseebi nahi hoti
har ek kahani mein kabhi raja to kabh rani nahi hoti
har samay hai ek sangharsh jeene ka
haalaaton ke aage jhukkar aage badne ka
woh pyaar jo pehla tha
woh yaar jo bheed mein akela tha
kyun bhulya nahi gaya humse
kyun juda ho na paya dilse
aaj mudaton baad fir unhein paayan wahaan
apna dil akela tanaha chhod aaye the jahan
fir dil mein ek kasak si jagi thi
fir wahi sapna ek raja jiski ek rani thi
fir us jagah se yun has kar chal diye
jaise safar mein do ajnabee kuch der rukkar chal diye
ab zindagi mein alag hi jahan apna hai
ek baar fir pyaara ek sapna hai
zindagi ke safar mein humsafar koi aur hai
jo chaha woh nahi.. humne paya koi or hai
Zindagi yuhin guzar jayegi yun socha na tha
kisi humsafar ke intezar mein samay roka na tha

It all begins at Me

"Charity begins at home", that's what Mom said when I told her I wanted to donate old clothes and all. At first I got slightly angry and didn't understand why she was stopping for doing something good. It took sometime but I understood what she meant. I could do the same thing, touch people's life.... the only difference would be that these people would be around me, Our staff... their children etc...

This saying built the foundation for a very important rule in life, It all begins at Me. Yes it does...

As I search for a friend
someone to listen to my fears
understand my feelings
accept me for what I am
I looked around
but there's nobody that I found
like I wanted
So I looked within
and understood
My friendship had to first originate with me.

As I search for love
unconditional and honest
pure and patient
a life long commitment
I looked around
but there's no one that I found
like I wanted
So I looked within
and understood
I had to first start loving me

As i search for a world
a place of peace and integrity
satisfaction of life and soul
a utopia, a perfection, a whole
I looked around
but there's nothing that I found
like I wanted
So I looked within
and understood
my perfection of world had to begin with me....


It all begins with you....and end with you...

It began just like this

Once long long ago... Ok not that long ago...During S6 (11th for all non MODERNITES) I walked into the staff room... I think I wanted to miss my Mathematics class and hence needed permission on some pretext from my Community Service In charge..... She was sitting with my English teacher, they were about the exercise she had made her class do and how it turned out.... I was standing there and listening to their conversation, waiting, so that i could take my permission note...but instead I got interested in the conversation and the exercise my teacher had done in her previous class...

She saw that I had gotten drawn to their conversation, so she humored me by telling me to perform the same exercise. She even encouraged me because she saw that expression of oddity on my face, and told me ' I know you'll write something beautiful'.... Anyways I didn't get my permission slip.... But in my mathematics class I ended up doing the exercise... which ended up in the first poem I wrote....

The exercise was to write in a word or line - "What would you rather be???"....And I wrote exactly what she expected out of me....

PS: Please ignore the use of funny things/ words that are used to complete the rhyming scheme... after all its the first thing i wrote


To be a normal person is a very easy task,
But it's difficult to be in pain and wear a happy mask.
Forget people, What would you rather be if not a human being,
Not an animal or bird, but something immortal which we keep seeing.

I'd rather be the Kite and fly high in the sky,
Beyond all limits, towards the horizon, with just a string tied.

I'd rather be the Soil in which the crops are grown,
To serve people with food, rather than being a person who moans and groans.

I'd rather be the Smile that all faces wear,
To make people happy and be a sign of cheer.

I'd rather be the Wind which flows without a barrier,
Calm, cool and mild and becomes a relaxation carrier.

I'd rather be the Tear that flows out and releases pain from the heart
than be the pain, that hurts like a needle on tip of a dart.

I'd rather be the Hug, the symbol of love and care in a heart,
So warm that sometimes with love it can tear the heart apart.

I'd rather be the Silver lining on the cloud of gray,
Giving hope to people in times of failure and dismay.

I'd rather be the Incentive, Motivation and Dedication,
That make you work tirelessly to reach your destination.

At last I'd rather be Love, Genuinity and Honesty
Which are the main ingredients of a souls purity

I did

This is an ode to someone I knew... someone I considered a friend....a close friend... I had met her few years ago....we were together for about 3-4 months and then she shifted away. We kept contact maybe not on a regular basis but we were there for each other... and one day we were chatting after a long time and things did not seem right. I told her I'd give her a call the next day.... I did plan to call her but got busy with my brother's wedding.... and when I finally wanted to contact her it was too late....my friend had passed on.....

My friend's life had been quite a roller coaster.... When we had met then too her life was going through a lot of mess.... she was the introvert kinds....often giving an appearance of an arrogant person, though she was a polar opposite to that.... She was a reserved and a shy person.... She was a person of few words.... she was a magnet for mess....and somehow that became the reason for negligence on my part.... she did reach out to me...I just couldn't see the gravity of the situation...and now nothing is left...

I don't think what she did was right and justified in any way.... but all the same it does take a lot of shit to drive a person till there.... people who matter not being thereat that time... people who you can hold on too... people who care for you...She did reach out to few of us but....we just thought it's one of those times and gave importance to our life and our things more....I'm not sure if I could have been the one who would've made the difference...But then maybe I would've...

I really did care for you and you meant a lot.....But now....its all become dust.....

Burnt lives and burnt bodies
Everything eventually
Dust
Lives of dissatisfaction
Felling of incompetence
Atmosphere of obscurity
Total insecurity
Hope being stolen away
Belief and faith stifled away....
Inside you peak
a heart ablaze you see,
in desperation a scream...
Pain.... Anger... Isolation....Suffocation...
Eyes emotionless and silent
A walk to the table
Dagger... poison.... and a rope....
All 'doors' are open
When all 'ways' are closed to you.
Eyes roll up... a thought
Oh Lord, I thank thee
For all that you gave me...
A smile....and now finally peace.......
Burnt lives give away
to burnt bodies
Everything eventually
DUST............................................

THE ULTIMATE BEFORE THE ULTIMATE

A moment is all that is there before that something very big, a very unnoticed but too big a moment.... A moment that I'm sure comes in every bodies life but somehow sometimes it's just not noticed... It's that one moment that makes all the difference, but it's that one moment we don't give importance to, the kind it deserves....Funny as though it may seem it is true.... It's with this moment in different situations that i wrote this... Might seem relevant might seem too random... just like always.....

Knock Knock

Whose there?

I’m the ultimate before the ultimate

And who may I ask is you

I’m the one moment before anything happens.

Sorry I didn’t quiet get you

Oh let me explain it all to you

When a person slips

Into the crutches of death

I’m that ultimate struggle

To catch an extra breath.

When the doctor, comes out of the OT

And silently in dismay nods his head

I’m that ultimate feeling of hope

Hoping that inside, the near n dear one isn’t dead.

When the judge gives his verdict of being guilty

And the guilty walks from the courtroom to the car

I’m the ultimate feeling of freedom

That he experiences before he goes behind the bars.

When after all wrong things

Something happens to go right

I’m that ultimate feeling of relief

That one gets after such a tremendous fight.

When the lovers end up quarrelling

And it all leads to moment of desperation

I’m the feeling of togetherness and love

That they had felt once, before the separation

When you’re about to lose someone you love

And that too because of some disease

I’m that ultimate feeling of helplessness

That one feels as they near the ultimate release.

You see I’m the ultimate before the ultimate

I’m the one moment that no one notices

Coz I don’t come for long…. Just few moments

N change everything….. to good or bad.

Now please can I come in

Coz in some way right now you’re also experiencing

The ultimate before the ultimate

Just been long time...

This one's again the blast from the past... It was written a very long time ago.... Though its recurrences in today's life are many..... Few scenes from here and there are acting like a Dejavu`....

WITHOUT....

Flowers without fragrance ............ Stars without shimmer
Clouds without rain ................... Bruises without pain
Music without beats .............. Journey without retreat
Nights full of mist .................. Stories without gist
Candles without flame .............. Guilty without blame
Name without fame ............... Victory without game
A hope without mission .............. An aim without precision
A desire that can't be fulfilled .......... A dream that can't be lived
A smile full of tears ...... Confidence full of fears
A friend yet an acquaintance .... thought of understanding yet estrangement

Feeling of love ...... A bliss
Totally unrequited...... A Miss

Promises are meant to be broken

"Promise breaker shoe maker" ...... " Promises honored are a persons honor" etc etc... This is all we learnt as we grew up about how a persons credibility and their character is judged through their ability to keep their promises.

A promise is one's word that something will be done an assurance... It is a hope, a possibility of things materializing... It's a security... It is something sacred...

Though the whole concept has changed today, we use it in such callousness and not care about it. "Hey I promise I'll be there".... "I promise I will do it".... "I give you my word for it".... "I assure you things are all right".... mostly whenever these phrases are used they mean quite the opposite.. there definitely are no intentions of being kept.... and when they are made to a loved one and then broken well it bring a lot of wrath upon u..... So that does become a point of concern...

But sometimes things get slightly complicated.... A promise is made to you and with that assurance you start treading fields that were unknown to you.... you reach where you might never have, just because you have that assurance as a support.... and in time when that promise is broken... you do get disappointed, but your spirit doesn't falter and this time you move on..... few words that i had written resonate what i have said in these few last lines.....

Five Words
Five words
Just five mere words
Upon which a friendship stood.
Five words that meant
Meant more than anything.
Five words that said -
I won't let you break.
Words that gave me strength.
Five words which made me again
think high,
made me want to fly,
wanting to reach the sky
which had inscribed upon it
No limit ..... Soar on... Fly high
I dreamt of reaching for the stars
which shimmered and twinkled
so pure so bright....
I started trusting again,
waiting to see the rainbow
after the rain....
Started blossoming like a flower...
And forgot all my grief and pain,
and set objectives again..
started on a journey
to achieve them
for now i had you to push me
as my strength.
But then the dream got over...
Reality struck again
History repeats it self
This time it was you
who gave the pain....
This time i broke
but it wasn't all that bad
For you had made me learn
lessons of life.
You taught me, life goes on and on
though, between us it may be an end,
But you'll find a friend, just around the bend
With that thought inside me again
Rebuilt on the ashes on my pain.
I knew
Someone will come as my strength
Someone will come as a friend
Someone will just come and whisper
these five magic words again
I won't let you break
And just take away pain....

Just been long time...

This is something i had read and loved.... and my teacher gave this to me as an inspiration to write... it is really long long ago... but i wanted it to be a part of the posts.... i still have it with me... teacher, you gave me wings... you gave me flight... my feelings became words and i got confidence to write....


Let me be
the thought you think
but do not speak
that secret treasure
you in solitude seek.

Let me be
the wind you feel
but cannot possess;
that beauty of nature
without access

Let me be
the voice which is distant
yet always near;
that memory you cannot share
but is forever dear

Let me be
the bond without strings
untouched by fear,
the bright day
when the sky is clear

Let me be
that smile you smile
but cannot satisfy
that longing you have
for 'us' to satisfy....

-anonymous

Just been long time...

This is a promise, i silently made to my friends... some of them knew about it some of them didn't... It's not like it mattered.... But its something i've tried to stand by.... even though its very immature and too idealistic....But once upon a time these are the standards i had set for myself and so try to live up to them.... Again this too was written long long ago...

When we are miles apart
When things wrong
And things seem like a sad song
I'll be there, Go on and on

When darkness covers you
and sunlight can't penetrate through
I'll be there, Go on and on

When tears roll down
and you can't help but frown
I'll be there, Go on and on

When you need someone to care
and there isn't anyone to share
I'll be there, Go on and on

When you're covered with shock
and you need someone to talk
I'll be there, Go on and on

When you can't handle anymore and think it's the end
And the path seems to narrow along the bend
I'll be there, Go on and on

I'll be there like a melody to your ears
I'll be there as a ray of hope to brighten your day
I'll be there to brings you the smile on your face
I'll be there just to be a patient listener
I'll be there as a companion to make your way easy
I'll be there to fill magic in your life
I'll be there like the rainbow filled with colours
I'll be there as your shadow
I'll be there in your heart
But most of all I'll be there as your friend
So don't worry....I'll be there, Go on and on

Just been long time...

More of the randomness, I had penned down long long ago.....


SShhh .... Quiet
Listen
to what I don't say
Read my eyes
which are moisten
even though
i have a smile
on my face...

Read and understand
the pain thats hidden i
n me even when i'm
jumping around to fill,
all around
with joy and cheer

Look within me
and see how things
are trapped
taking help of a pencil
to let out
in words that
have been
skillfully woven
instead of having
your shoulder
to cry on

I wish you had eyes
that could see or
ears that could hear
even now when
my silence speaks
and shouts
searching for you
to listen what
i don't say....

Just been long time...

I found a few pages from here and there.... i had penned them down a long ago.... they are quite random but have a funny connection today... so just putting them down....

The bridge over troubled waters...
where even the thoughts begin to shatter
Confusion of thoughts, cluttered in the mind
Whether or not to move on, leaving everything behind
Whether to invest time and let everything to shape about
All that has lost meaning and completely messed out
Just to let go of everything that's been in my heart and on my mind
And not care about people who have been ' Two steps Behind'......
Don't know what tommorow ; the future holds for me
Something good, its bound to be...
There will be sunshine at the end of the night
Things will again fall in place and be right...
But, for the time being, mind loses its control over its thoughts,
Confusion, anxiety persist and things remain entangled in knots...
The bridge over troubled waters...
Where things stop to matter.....

Crib

Ok this is really very funny as far as i remember, every time i complained my mom turned around and said " Nami stop cribbing".... I mean yes I have heard the word in many other contexts ; cots, people homes etc. but mostly in the complain context only.... and somehow the same meaning as in crib meaning complain doesn't exist on the net... so before i go forward an ardent request to anyone who reads this post.... if you by any chance come across the meaning of crib as i have known it please give me the link so that i can alter my post...

Now what i intended to say before i started this post is completely different. We all crib, its human nature ... Mummy the food's not nice.... I wanted a pink shirt and you got me a blue one.... oh what the hell, the trailers to the movie were so much better than the movie actually was.... Why is my food getting delayed, why can't i ever get it on time.... yada yada yada.... and more blah blah blah... ya too many reasons to crib about.... But you know cribbing is of two kinds - useful ( I'm telling you it can be) and useless, the later ones being all the examples above and some like ; it's hot in Delhi .... Yes in the month of May and June it is hot in Delhi ... Christ, it rains too much in Mumbai... Yes in the rainy season it always rains too much in Mumbai.... So when someone cribs like this all i feel like doing is turning around and saying Duuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh!!!!!..... I mean i am a very very understanding person and I can empathise a lot, but sorry not on reasons like these... Please Forgive Me.....

Useful cribbing when most of the times our parents crib ; why are you sitting useless... do something constructive....clean your room... eat proper healthy food..I get to listen to it most of the time,yes if one tries to act on those well it could turn out to be a blessing.... Or when these days most of us turn around and crib to God... Please make it Rain... Yes we need those, there are lot of forest fires happening, lots of crop being spoilt because of no rain, water levels are going done.. can't have that happening... so every time we crib about rain not happening, our collective prayer is being sent and He just might listen to us soon enough. When we crib more bitch about our near and dear ones... if only he could do this... if only she would understand that this irritates me, yes we all endlessly crib about our own people wanting them to change in someway if not more, well if that near and dear one understands the reason of your cribbing and changes. Your cribbing might just have worked, it could be useful, but sometimes it brings in distance so beware....

So all I want to say is Crib lot more people if it makes sense....coz when you crib with mind you could bring about a good change.... and that's good in most of the cases.. we don't need stagnancy in our life do we.....but..... if it doesn't make sense.... spare the people around you ... you could well be perceived as a cynic... we don't want that happening do we.....

Movies..... Masti...Magic

Yes, the tittle is borrowed and so is the content of this post..... I am publishing it in public ( NIDHI and SAGAR ) interest... you see i know few people who are not clued in with our most cliche movies and the dialogues that appear in them, which in turn becomes dangerous to their health because certain people take offense to their ignorance of the Bollywood. This one's for them. The dialogues appearing in this mail are not in a chronological order, only how they came to my mind, most of em should have the movie with them but if they don't please again leave a comment so that i can edit later... for the love of movies.. muaaaaaaaah

PS: please add to my list

Mooche ho to Nathulal jaise ho….warna na ho – Shaarabi ; well this is how the conception of this post came to my mind, because this certain someone again didn't know where this was from or if it was a dialogue...so that's the first one im posting....

ishq de meree mitra pehchaan kee mit javay jadoon zid apnan dee
Hindi Version: (As said by Katrina) Sachhe Pyar Ka Matlab, Usse Haasil Karna Nahin Hota.... this one's from Namaste London.... a movie i recently saw and i love....

Sara saher mujhe lion ke naam se jaanta hai – Kaalicharan – the quote that spawned hundreds of ‘Ajit jokes’.
Police ne tumhe charon taraf se gher liya hain – apne aap ko kannon ke haawale kar do – I know – its one of those hackneyed dialogues – but I included it since it was used so many times by this one actor Iftekar, speaking into a meagphone including Don, and many more... Paanch ruapiya bara ana – Chalti Ka Naam Gadi
Babumoshai…. – Anand
Ki..ki…ki…Kiran – Darr – The beginning of SRK’s endless hamming
Mere Paas Maa Hai – Deewar – One of the very few times perhaps when Amitabh’s co-actor has run away with the better dialogue.

Mogambo khush hua – Mr. India

Kitne aadmi the – Sholay – I am sure there will be very little arguement on this
Chal Dhano! Aaj teri Basanti ki izzhat ka saawal hai - Sholay
Hum jaha pe khade ho jaate hein, line wahi se shuru hoti hai – Kaaliya

E lo kar lo baat. Are aisi angrezi ave hain ke I can leave angrez
behind. I can talk english, I can walk english, I can laugh english,
because english is a funny language. Bhairon becomes barren and
barren becomes Bhairon because their minds are very narrow. In the
year 1929 when India was playing Australia at the melbourne stadium
Vijay Hazare and Vijay Merchant were at the crease. Vijay Merchant
told Vijay Hazare. look Vijay Hazare, this is a very prestigious
match and we must consider it very prestigiously. We must take this
into consideration, the consideration that this is an important match
and ultimately this consideration must end in a run.
Ranjeet: O.K., O.K.
Amitabh: In the year 1979 when Pakistan was playing against India at the
Wankhade stadium Wasim Raja and Wasim Bari were at the crease and
they took the same consideration. Wasim Raja told Wasim Bari, look
Wasim Bari, we must consider this consideration and considering that
this is an important match we must put this consideration into action
and ultimately score a run. And both of them considered the
consideration and ran and both of them got out.
Ranjeet: O shut up. - Namakhalal.... .

Sinoreeta… aisi bare bare deshon mein… aisi choti choti batein… hoti rehti hai- DDLJ

aaj sham 6 baje maut ke sat appendment hai, apendment enlgish bolta hai - Agneepath

Naam:Vijay deenanath chauhan..Poora naam, baap ka naam:deena nath chauhan, maa ka naam, suhasini chauhan- Agneepath

Don Ko Pakadna Mushkil Hi Nahin, Namumkin Hai - Don

tarikh pe tarik - damini(sunny deol)

Badman -Ram Lakhan

pushpa, aye pushpa, i hate tears re - Aradhna.... n i know Sid would say... "kaka rox re"

Chaint khuli ke mainth khuli ki chaint- Satte pe satta

Thakur to ggggiyo - Ashok Saraf in Karan Arjun... just watched it today

Jaani..Yeh bacchhon ke khelne ki cheez nahi, haath kat jaaye toh khoon nikal aata hai’ - Chaalbaz.... originally from some Raajkumar movie but figures in chalbaaz also...

chutiye aur bewkoof mein dhage bhar ke pharak hega… aur jo dhaga hainch do, to kaun hai bewkoof, kaun chu**** , karod rupe ka prashan hai bhaiya…. saif in omkara.

Humaara naam Soorma Bhoopali aise nahin hai!!!

Ye haath hamain de de thakur!!!

Kuttey.. Main tera Khoon pee jaunga

Daaam jo tum Chaho, Kaam Jo main chahoon... all from sholay

Rishtey main to hum tumharey baap hotey hain, Naam hai Shenshah

Mein Viren ko Panch saal se janti hun……
Mein to unko taab se janti hu jaab se Mein panch saal ki thi!!
Lamhe (Best Dialogue FilmFare award for 1991)

Appke pare bahut khoobsurat hain, inhe zameen par mat rakhiyega , maile ho jaayenge - Rajkumar in Pakeezah

Chal Hata Sawan ki Ghata, Khaal Khuja Batti buja ke soja nintukle pintukle, Vanti pe khadeli he banti baja rahi hai baar baar ghanti kulla mila ke paschim ko palatle… Bahut ho gaya phut le vat le…Chal jaa yaha se … Hawa ande yaar….” - Deewana Mastana govinda

Silent movie, thoda sound de na!
Tu sad sad kyon hai, happy-sad kyon nahi?
Hum sad kyun hote hain? Kyonki mann bhaari hai, heavy heavy!
Mann kab heavy, heavy hota hai? Jab mann ko koi hurt karta hai!
Mann ko kon itna hurt kar sakta hai? Jo mann ke very very close hota hai!
Mann ke very very close kon hota hai? Jiske sang mann very very happy feel karta hai!
Happy tha, isliye sad hai na, So be happy-sad not sad-sad!”- Cheenikum, sexy to amitabh

Mujhe parivartan pasand nahi mr.Aryan”
Amitabh in Mohabbattein

Mere do do baap” – Gopi Kishan (Sunil Shetty)

Eggjactly – Javed Jafferi, Salaam Namasthe

Bacche Ki Jaan Lega Kya – Akshay Kumar

Frienship mein no sorry, no thank you – salman khan, maine pyar kiya

saif: jo pyar kamyab ho uske baare mein baat karne ki zaroorat nahi hoti, aur jo pyar na kamyab ho uske baare mei baat karne ka faayda nahi

interviewer: aur jo pyar adhura reh jaye woh

Saif: sacha pyar kabhi adhura nahi rehta, ek na ek din usse poora hona hi hota hai

interviewer: to aapki zindagi mein toh bahut se pyar aaye honge

Saif: aya toh ek hi par aaya bahut baar

saif: jo pyar kamyab ho uske baare mein baat karne ki zaroorat nahi hoti, aur jo pyar na kamyab ho uske baare mei baat karne ka faayda nahi

interviewer: aur jo pyar adhura reh jaye woh

Saif: sacha pyar kabhi adhura nahi rehta, ek na ek din usse poora hona hi hota hai

interviewer: to aapki zindagi mein toh bahut se pyar aaye honge

Saif: aya toh ek hi par aaya bahut baar - Hum Tum

Jeet ke haarne wale ko Baazigar kehte hain.. - Baazigar