One Letter Short of Danger

Listen, I'm sorry ... I really didn't mean to

Relax...I'm fine and you Don't need to apologize....

And the conversation became normal and after few minutes the question popped

"What is it.... Why does the anger even at a basic level unnerve you...As in so many times even when its not your fault you end up apologizing just to ease out the situation....What is it?"


Laughter... No it's no filmy crap or any dirty secret from my past that is embedded in my memory which scares me... Its just I don't like the concept of Anger.... One of those silly things "Anger is one letter short of Danger"

And with that answer I got a look of "Stop Bullshitting Me" and then I had to explain further

Anger according to me is the most damaging thing.... People's worst side comes out when they are angry.... It's reactions are short sighted.... Even the most virtuous people in History are known to have resorted to violence because of their anger. It makes us do things that we regret later and sometimes things that are unrepairable...

Yes I'm human and I do get angry too, but I prefer to go quite because it can create a lot of damage... Ill spoken words, violence what does it achieve... just bad feelings and a feeling of regret later.. When in a fight I either can fuel the fight by further speaking rudely else I can be the one to say sorry and end it there. Why carry on the fight and the tension and the ill-will and all??? Isn't it best to end it there...

The most virtuous of kings... Ashoka- The Great in his spite and anger led the conquest of Kalinga which led to a lot of destruction. The exact reason for the Wat of Kalinga is unknown but it is said that

Susima's brothers might have fled to Kalinga and found official refuge there. This enraged Ashoka immensely. Ashoka asked the royalty of Kalinga to submit before him but they refused.

Ashoka sent one of his generals to Kalinga to make them submit.

The general and his forces were completely routed through the skilled tact of Kalinga's commander-in-chief. Ashoka was baffled at this defeat and then attacked Kalinga with the greatest invasion ever known. The whole of Kalinga was plundered and destroyed. About 100,000 people were killed on the Kalinga side and 10,000 from Ashoka's army. This was the price of his anger. There after he felt remorse.

Whats the use of such anger which leads to pain and destruction for so many. So many times even when the anger doesn't come out and simmers within a person it is harmful. Yes even when I get angry and I go quiet .... I get this burning feeling inside and feel irritable and end up harming myself.. In my anger, I can't think rationally and can't do things in a proper manner, so yes even though I don't speak mean and I don't hurt the other person it does harm me...

So ya I do prefer letting the matter go with a simple sorry and that does help mellow the other person down and then talk it out with them and clear the misunderstanding.

Also when you re arrange the alphabets of Anger they come to Range and really I do feel that anger does harm and destroy everything in Range.... As in when a persons angry they end up being mean and rude to people who haven't even done anything...Your near and dear ones end up facing the brunt of someone else's mistakes or improper behavior....Just because of your anger, You lash out on everyone else and that's not fair or reasonable but that does happen.. So ya I feel Anger destroys things in Range.

So that's just the reason why I get un-nerved when I'm around people who are angry or when a similar situation.... I feel its prudent just to say Sorry and ease the situation at hand...And please you know I'm not bull-shitting now so trust me and let be...Lets enjoy the food

Fairytale - Be good

"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel"

This is my biggest and strongest belief in my life and hence most of the time I behave in a manner that is befitting my belief.... As in there are many times when I'm doing certain things and honestly I'm not happy doing them but I still do them because I feel that people will remember my actions and some day when the circle completes that good turn will come my way.... and even if it doesn't at least I will definitely have this satisfaction of saying I was right and I'm glad I did nothing wrong in my anger.

But this sentence or belief has a much larger and stronger meaning and emphasis. A persons actions whether good or bad always remain with people. If someone unexpectedly or without any reason does a good turn... you end up feeling good and that good feeling stays. Similarly if someone was to act like a jerk without any reason there is this "what the hell" feeling and then it kind of stays for most part of the day.

Good deeds and actions done with or without a reason always bring a smile to people's face and that smile reaches their heart and stays as a memory. It's never forgotten. It becomes an anecdote to tell for a large part of people's life.

There's a reason why few sayings like "You will reap as you sow" or "One good deed deserves another" or "Life is a circle and you face your demons and niceness here" were made. They definitely hold true. And if you keep patience you see them unfold in front of your eyes.

I know its easier said than done, but even though a person might act mean and totally not nice, you as a person should not leave your ground and keep on being nice. The person at that time might not see your niceness or might take you for granted because you're nice. But one day, its my belief they do see things in retrospect and are filled with remorse at what they did or what they lost but sometimes by then its too late and they are left with nothing but guilt. Your good actions and behaviour will never go un-noticed.

I very strongly believe in fairy tales .... and also believe that any story that did not have a happy end cannot be a fairy tale and you have to keep patience to meet your fairy tale. But until then you have to keep on being good.... Every fairy tale has had the beautiful princess and a handsome prince but everything going against them and yet the princess and prince kept their niceness and fought their way through and only then did they receive a "Happily Ever After" and that's precisely how life is....Unfair and a long battle with lots of obstacles and eveil step mothers and dragons and curses but a person with a strong character maintaining his niceness only gets the Happily Ever After...

So Be GOOD.... There's always someone watching.... There's always someone's life you end up touching without knowing.... There are always hundreds silent good wishes given and prayers read for your niceness and you just never know which prayer reaches HIM and turns your life into a Happily Ever After Fairytale

Can There......

Can there be a time when you’re so lost that your presence can’t be found……

I mean ya… not the case of Lost in thought… those we’ve all had and have been castigated by our teachers at least once during our lifetimes…. Even the geeks have been lost in some thought even if it was yet another numerical they were solving in their head during English class and had to be hauled back to life/senses… back to the lit. class. Point being, all of us have been lost like that and I definitely didn’t mean this lost…..

And yes I don’t mean the lost like the “The Lost” sit com where you’re lost in some geographical unit of the world like an island waiting to be found or the Tundra and Alaska where there’s a saying that once you’re lost.. You might never be found…..

I mean, can there actually be a time in life where your own presence can’t be found… even by you… where you feel completely lost to things around you and there seems no way that can turn around things… there seems no way that can lead to an opening…a ray of light.. A solution….. Where the only solution that could and is available to you in fact might get you in a deeper black hole…..

Can you ever be so detached and clueless where you seek for the company of people…. Where your privacy and you solitariness threatens you and you go looking for the comforting company of your most trusted and loved ones and in fact that turns out to unnerve you further…. Where someone is so close to you… is your hope and an expression to your emotion but still is so far away… so distant…so not there sitting 2 inches away from you…. You’re left completely baffled at now what….

Can you be so falsified and dissimulated by your own self where you lose track of your own senses….

I mean like you lose track of your own hunger…. Where you feel hungry, then in matter of few minutes you don’t …. And in case you do end up eating you’re so distorted that nothing seems compatible or palatable to your taste buds… nothing no pizza… no pasta… no butter chicken… you just end up eating little coz you know its imperative….

Where any/ all music on your drives and disks somehow stops making sense and sounds cacophonous and the peace and quite also irritates you…

Can you ever be so Unacquainted with your own self…..

I thought not…. But I guess Yes…….

How lost is lost

How lost is found…..

How what was found was lost….

An emotion

A soul

A heart

A break

A person who’s fake

A journey we didn’t take

A life we could not make

Things that matter

Emotions/moments to gather

The Power in a Relationship Lies with the One Who Cares Less......

I read this status update on facebook.... it was my best friends.... and it got me thinking....

Do people actually realise the power they have over others.... Do they realise they have the power to change a persons life...to maneuver a persons life in any direction....

Do they realise all this and purposely be insensitive to hurt the other.... to weaken the other.... what kind of egoistic satisfaction can a person extort out f hurting a person who blindly cares for them..... what is this power game..... I mean are they blind to see that they only get this power because someone genuinely loves them..... if this someone was to stop caring where would they get this power from.... and if this someone cares so much for them is it fair to act this callous way.... and hurt them

Does it actually make sense to Care less for a person to be the significant powerful one when someone unconditionally loves you and trusts you...

Diwali

Uday- The Rise

This is something I had written 7 yrs ago when my nephew was born... i had uploaded it on a portal for poetry, they needed that if you published a poem in Hindi it had to be supplemented with a translation in English. Well the translation also turned to be nice so adding both

Uday andhkar ko tyagti subah ka hai
Uday ek akanksha ek umeed ka hai
Uday ek khushi ek nae ullas ka hai
Uday do logon ke milan ka hai
Uday kisi ki aati jaati saason or nae jeevan ka hai
Uday ek nai peedi ka hai
Uday ek nai kilkaari nae phul ka hai
Uday kisi ki kalpana ke saakshat roop ka hai
Uday uska hai jisko uski chahat hai
Uday mera hai humara hai
Aakhir Uday Omkaar hai.


It's the rise - where darkness is left by the night and morning follows
It's the rise- of new dreams and new hopes
Its the rise of a new happiness and new jubilation
It's the rise of someone's love
It's the rise when two people will unite
It's the rise of the coming and going of someone's life and someone's new life
It's the rise of a new generation
It's the rise of a new cry and a new flower(baby)
It's the rise where someone's dream have taken the form of reality
It's the rise of all those who've yearned for it
The rise is mine, The rise is Ours
After all The Rise is God

Vande Mataram

On this day & always, I shall honour and love my Motherland.....Vande Maataram...

This is the feeling that the day of August 15th started. I got on Facebook and updated my status, it was echoed by many others. Surge of patriotism had rushed through many others like me.... I even gifted the beloved Flag to lots of people through Facebook......We went out for lunch and all through the drive to the restaurant we listened to nice nice patriotic songs.....Its not that we saw the freedom struggle or anything.... It's this pride in being an Indian... It's this pride in belonging to India....

Well there were many who acted cynic and said what is this Independence day.... whats there to be happy about????? have you seen what the country has become and where it's going.. there is so much corruption..... there is so much of this.... there is so much of that.... and the cynicism went on and on.....Well I ignored it and was like whatever....

Fast Forward to October.... Newspapers started flooding with articles on Do's and Don'ts in respect of the Common Wealth Games 2010.... These Do's and Don'ts are to be followed for a year till 2010 games....There will be new road regulations... New fines....The people will be taught how to be courteous and polite.... It was one week before Diwali and the government asked people not to move out of homes till absolutely necessary because a dry run/drill was being done for the Games....It was quite irritating....

So in the evening that day I sat with a couple of my "cynic" friends and started speaking about how stupid the whole affair of dry runs is... "what stupidity is this one week before diwali and they expect us to sit at home, how is one to get their work done??? what is this need to be courteous or to be taught to be courteous, what crap is all this???" Funny as it may seem, but the same friends who were ranting about the stupidity of Independence Day started screaming at me, telling me how idiotic I am to be thinking like this. " Nami its the commonwealth games, don't you realize how prestigious it is..... You are going to be a Host to so many nations....The country has to be at it's best...You, I all of us will be acting like ambassdors of the country, when we do something out of the line people will scorn us for being bad Hosts.... Have you forgotten what our culture teaches us Atithi devo Bhavah- guests are to be treated like God" ..... I couldn't help but laugh at the Irony of the situation.... These people who couldn't take pride in being an Indian few months back suddenly were acting all nationalistic and patriotic.... It was funny..But then I thought....Hey even if its the Commonwealth Games which is getting this feeling in people.... Feeling of Pride for one's Nation... It's working....the work is getting done

In the end Whatever works... and gets the work done....And gets people to echo this feeling below

Bhagwa Safed Hara… Jeevan Chakra Mera…..Karm Satya Dharti Maa Inhi Mein Main Pala… Bhartiya Main Jana Bhartiya hi jala… Bhartiy Main Jeeyu Sada Bharitya Rahun… Bhagwa Safed Hara… Jeevan Chakra Mera